I promise you, I'm always there

Footprints In The Sand (Single Mix) - Leona Lewis

You walked with me, footprints in the sand

And helped me understand, where I'm going

You walked with me, when I was all alone

With so much unknown, along the way

Then I heard you say

I promise you, I'm always there

When your heart is filled

With sorrow and despair

I'll carry you

When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand

I see my life flash across the sky

So many times have I been so afraid

And just when I, have thought I lost my way

You gave me strength to carry on

That's when I heard you say

I promise you, I'm always there

When your heart is filled

With sorrow and despair

And, I'll carry you

When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand

When I'm with you

Well I know you've been there

And I can feel you when you say

I promise you, I'm always there

When your heart is filled

With sadness and despair

I'll carry you

When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand

When your heart is full of

Sadness and despair

I'll carry you

When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand

The name's Bond. James Bond.

The Unexpected Getaway

I wouldn't be on that ship if it wasn't because of peer pressure.

Let's just put it this way; although I didn't really need this holiday, I still had a great time and enjoyed myself much.

It was a damn good deal, no regrets. Though I almost fell into the evil clutches of the casino and its pretty dealers. Thank God.

The first 2 days were uneventful. Basically roamed around the ship and realizing that the casino is the only place worth going. Star Cruise is damn smart.

 

Food onboard the cruise was not too bad, with a few buffet restaurants where you can eat you heart out. Meals like barbeque, western and chinese etc. There is even a fine dining restaurant where they make you wear some hideous jacket if you're under dressed and their hostess looks like LENA NG WAN TING.

I love that feeling of having a good meal and leaving without having to pay for anything. Shiok!!!

The place where Jack and Rose were kissing passionately and thinks they were flying. Morons. LOL. Notice there is a Jacuzzi?

 

Desmond told me we might be seeing dolphins once we're out in the sea. I can't believe I actually believed him.

My favourite time of day on cruise is during the night. I could just stand there leaning against the railing and enjoy the sea breeze. The boundless ocean really puts my mind at peace. The sky has nothing but stars. I felt so relaxed. So disconnected from the bustling world.

 

Then it was Penang. Apparently, their humble harbor is not deep enough for the majestic STAR AQUARIUS. Damn noob. So we all had to board a smaller boat to ship us over.

   

Do not let that sweet smile deceive you. I FREAKING HATE PENANG!!! That island is full of weird taxi uncles and half-demolished buildings. If I ever get my hands on one nuclear warhead, I'll send it straight to Penang.

   

Phuket is where the real fun begins! Before the ship even sailed into the harbor, I was already mesmerized by the costal scenery of Phuket. We were pleasantly welcomed by the blue sky and the calm waters. 

8 hours on that beautiful island is obviously not enough. Thanks to Linus's dad, who brought us around to experience lots of amazing activities.

Came across this peculiar sign at Patong beach. It says Drunken people crossing. How thoughtful of them. We went parasailing there. Woah. I don't even know how to describe that experience.

I just felt like I was flying.

That's right, Rose. Parasailing is what I call flying, not standing infront of the ship kissing.

Had a chance to try Banana Boat too. One word. Shiokk. Very thrilling, very violent. I was thrown off once and my nose bled.

My only regret is not having the chance to take any pictures while I was at the beach. It would have been breath taking to take photos of Phuket from the air.

There were so much to do in Phuket. Live firing at the shooting range, where I used a rifle and shot 92% accuracy. Sian, sniper liao. Then there was the ATV jungle trek and Go Cart which goes 100 km/h.

 

Before we leave Phuket and back to the ship, I made a quiet promise to myself that I'll be back soon for a holiday here. It simply did not do justice to this place without staying for at least a few days. I had to forgo the chance to appreciate the beaches and scenery this time round. I left Phuket with a heavy heart.

Then it was the long sail home. Back to Singapore and Jasmine Gan. The journey which someone couldn't resist the dark temptation and ventured back to the sinister casino and lost all of his remaining fortune of a tidy sum of 200 dollars to the pretty dealers.

I'm telling you, Star Cruise is damn smart.

The Getaway

It has been a trying year.

What I have been through, endured, and survived for the past few months, is best left hidden behind.

" What can't kill us, makes us stronger." How true.

I never thought that I would blog again after abandoning it for months. What's the point though, I dont know. Who cares, I just wanna.

Just came back from a vacation. Relaxed. Renewed. Rejuvenated.

My idea of a perfect holiday has always been chilling on a Tropical Paradise. With the blue sky, white sandy beach and crystal clear waters. The dream destination would be, of course, Maldives. Always been. Always will be.

As we all know, it is not a place where a few hundred bucks can take us there. Places like these should always remain a dream, until we have the ability and the occasion to fulfill it, and to enjoy every last bit the Paradise has to offer.

Wait for me, Maldives, I'll be there one day. This I promise you.

So in my attempt to look for somewhere that resemble my dream holiday, I came across this beautiful place, The Redang Island.

Not cheap though, but affordable. Not as breath-taking, but can do. Not as dreamy, but at least it was a dream come true.

The Redang Island is somewhere in the South China Sea, off the east coast of Peninsular Malaysia, very near Thailand.

We took a plane from Seletar Airport, and flew one and a half hours over the sea, into this little tropical island.

Then, here we are, at a quiet and undisturbed, exclusive beach resort.

I swear I could have stayed at that beautiful resort forever. The place gave me the peace I seek, gave me the rest I need.

The main attraction of the resort, however, was its beach. I believe. Almost everyday, you can wake up to a scene like this.

And this is all you really need to start your day. Everyday.

A slow walk down that beach can make everything right. Anything.

The ever shining Sun would always be smiling at you. The gentle sea breeze would kiss your cheeks and race through your hair. Close your eyes and listen to the playful waves, can you hear them sing?

Had a chance to go snorkling at one of the nearby islands. The waters are so clear until it is heart breaking. Just a couple of metres from the beach and we could already see fishes and corals.

If just a rural island in Malaysia can be so enchanting, the thought of visiting Maldives one day sends chills down my bones. I cant even imagine what places like Maldives and Tahiti have to offer.

There and back again, the hidden gem of South East Asia. Wait till my next getaway, the visit to the heavens of my dreams.

Feminine Power

After staring at my blog for a few days, i realised it's quite freaky to have barbie staring back at me.

Dont ask me what i was thinking when i was posting that. I seriously have no idea. My best guess is that i was possessed by some ancient evil girlish spirit who wants to bring out the girl in me. Obviously i'm quite girly lah.

Anyway i'm sure there are ppl who are secretly in love with that song and wont admit it, right right? I like that song, that's why i posted here. So dont judge! Lol.

It's a week more before my internship starts. FYI, i'm doing operations in the Singapore Zoo.

I dont know what is installed for me and what to expect. I just hope that i'll enjoy myself and have a good time. Let me tell you one thing about the Singapore Zoo, they have a pretty receptionist at the corporate office. Oh man, everytime i walk through that office door i feel nervous. Haha just kidding. Erm the nervous part, the pretty receptionist is real. Wonder what's the name of the sweet voice. I'm sure i'll soon find out.

Since i have got nothing to do during this break, i decided i should keep trim and fit by going jogging everyday. It really requires alot of motivation and determination though. The last time i ran was in sec 4? That explains the first day i started jogging, which was a few days ago, i couldnt even last 5 mins. Like what the hell?

So everyday i'll cycle to the stadium to jog. I'm surprised that i actually feel refreshed after jogging, instead of feeling tired and out of breath. Maybe i'm getting fitter after all.

The weather's been gloomy these few days, some drizzlings here and there. Jogging in the rain is quite nice while listening to my ipod, but it gets a little lonely when there is only me in the stadium?

After jogging i'll go to the changing room the splash some water on my face. I walked to the sink and turned on the tap. Washing my face with the cool water was certainly refreshing. Then i looked up and stared into the mirror. I saw the cleaner in the background. She was holding her mop and looking at me. I turned around and look at her.

She gazed into my eyes and i gazed into hers. We both smiled. She dropped her mop and walked towards me. I was starting to get nervous.

She was getting closer and closer.

I screamed in fear.

Post CNY/Exams Trauma

Barbie plays Rosella in this new musical film. Shipwrecked as a child, Rosella grows up on the island under the watchful eyes of her loving animal friends. The arrival of Prince Antonio leads Rosella and her furry pals to explore civilization and ultimately save the kingdom by uncovering a secret plot.



I Need to Know by Barbie

Where is the land I come from,
Who lives where I was born,
Why do my memories start with a storm?

What if I have a family?
Somewhere beyond the sea,
Could there be someone there missing me?

Tell me!
Why I'm not sleeping and my heart is leaping inside me!
Could this be one of those times when your feelings decide?

Why does he look through circles?
Why does he hide his feet?
Why do I feel so shy when we meet?

Is this the tree he sleeps in?
What can he see from there?
Could there be new horizons to share?

All these questions keep turning and churning and burning inside me,
What are these feelings I feel,
When he's here by my side?

I need to know these answers
I need to find my way
Seize my tomorrow
Learn my yesterday

I need to take these chances
Let all my feelings show
Can't tell what's waiting
Still I need to go
I need to know

Isn't she just amazing?
Daring and bold and sure
Different from girls that I've met before.
Do you think she might like me?
How do I look tonight?
I just want everything to be right.

All these questions keep turning and churning and burning inside me
What are these feelings I feel
When she's here by my side?

I need to know these answers
I need to find my way
Seize my tomorrow
Learn my yesterday

I need to take these chances
Let all my feelings show
Can't tell whats waiting
Still I need to go
I need to know

Wah damn nice...

Worst Chinese New Year Ever!

It's not like something bad happened or anything, but just that it was rather depressing.

I never really liked chinese new year because of all the relatives to handle, hearing all those superficial comments from the gossipy aunties...

" Wah so handsome now ah! " Like isnt that obvious? Haha!!

This year's family gatherings really hit me in the guts, both maternal and paternal.

I dont know if it's just me or are all my cousins bringing back their girlfriends this year? What's more, they are all pretty ones lorrr...

That's when I'm filled with a sudden rage of jealousy, face green like the Hulk, went into the kitchen, open the fridge, and gulp down a can of Cranberry juice, 100% real juice, freshly squeezed, low sugar, high fibre and rich in vitamin C. What, you were expecting me to gulp down a shot of vodka? Nah, see, i dont drink.

So wad do they do when they bring back their girlfriends? That's right, they sit at one corner and talk between themselves. Smooching in one dark corner, cuddling on the sofa, touching each other on the bed...

And me? I drift around like a lost soul, walking here and there like an outcast, unwanted and despised.

That's when the horrible relatives start to ask questions.

" So where's your girlfriend?"
" Why never bring back for us to see?"
" Come on, dont lie, where's she?"
" Serious ah? "
" You gay?"

My cousin-in-law, Giles, would say," eh gay boy, where are your boyfriends?"

How mean can you get?

Every one question asked brought me closer to the brink of tearing. Even the eldest uncle came to me and ask,

" So wad about you? Where is your handbag?"

I cant believe i adsent-mindedly replied, " I'm a guy, i dont carry handbags."

So, with my fragile sanity hanging by a thread, i wondered around the house again. I drift around like a lost soul, walking here and there like an outcast, unwanted and despised. this time hoping to catch my cousins' attention and play lego with me.

It just simply anger me to tears that they would rather just talk to their parthers for the rest of the night and continue to ignore what's happening around them, engrossing in their own world, where the Sun always shines and the sky is always blue, than to entertain their cousin who used to have heart to heart talks with them..

Yes, if you guys are reading this, you ought to feel ashamed of yourself for neglecting your loving cousin here.

So when cousins have failed me, i turn to the elders. I walked to the living room and was shocked to see all the old people sitting around, staring at the tv blankly. I swear to god i thought i walked into a jungle of wrinkles. Erm, no thanks.

So I continue with my adventure and came to this room. Or should i call it a gambling den? The adults were gambling furiously. Cards and notes were flying all over the room. One of them asked me if i wanna join in. I reached into my pocket and digged out a 10 cent coin. The following are the responses i got.

" Go Away!!"
" GET LOST!"
" **** OFF!!"

See, i dont gamble neither.

Carrying on with my journey, i stumbled onto the the kiddy's world. They seemed to welcome me. I felt happiness and love.

" Kor Kor, see i can pull out the doll's eyes!"
" Kor Kor, see i can swollow the lego!"
" Kor Kor, see i can put my whole fist into my mouth!"

I stared in horror.

Sensing the whole family of all generations had failed me, I started once again to drift like a lost soul, walking here and there like an outcast, unwanted and despised.

It was then i decided that i needed another can of Cranberry juice. I walked into the kitchen and saw the maid there wiping dishes.

I opened a can of Cranberry juice and took a sip. I leaned on the fridge and look at the maid. She was looking at me. I gazed into her eyes. She gazed into mine. We both smiled. Then i knew. I had to do it.

I thought to myself, " Where have you been all these while? "

I took another long gulp of the Cranberry juice.

Then we started to have a heart to heart talk, throughout the lonely night....

If I ask, would you say yes?

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so-called 'best friend'.
I stared at her long, silky hair.
I wished she were mine, but she didn't notice me like that.
And I knew it.
After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before, and I handed them to her.
She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanted to tell her.
I wanted her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why.

11th Grade...

The phone rang. It was her on the other end.
She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours, a Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags ofchips, she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me, said 'thanks,' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why.

12th Grade...

The day before prom she walked to my locker.
'My date is sick,' she said. He's not going to go.
Well, I didn't have a date and in 7th grade we made a promise that if neitherof us had dates we would go together just as 'best friends,' so we did.
Prom night, after everything was over,I was standing at her front doorstep.
I stared at her.
She smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I know it.
Then she said, 'I had the best time, thanks!' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don'twant to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why...

Graduation Day...

A day passed.
A week passed.
A month passed.
Before I could blink, it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and she cried as I hugged her.
Then, she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, 'You're my best friend, thanks!' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why...

A Few Years Later...

Now, I sit in the pews of the church.
She is getting married, now.
I watched her say, 'I do' and drive off to her new life, married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it.
But before she drove away, she came to me and said, 'You came!'
She said, 'thanks!' and kissed me on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why...

Funeral...

Years pass, and I looked down at the coffin of the girl who used to be my best friend.'
At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he were mine.
But he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it.
I want to tell him.
I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love him, but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me...
I wish I did too...
I thought to myself, and I cried.

Christmas Day

It's funny how i dread the holiday i love the most. It makes me feel emotional, and i have no idea why. The songs, especially, really get me into the mood. Makes me wanna give the special someone a hug and admire the decorations on the streets together.

As much as i dread it, i love Christmas. It's such a romantic and joyous season. Everyone is happy. Everyone is smiling. Love, is everywhere.

This year's Christmas isnt quite different from the others, going to parties, shopping for presents, and family gatherings. Infact, i just came back from a party at Grace's place. It was nice to see so many friends coming and just to spend time together. Thanks, Grace, for everything.

So let's see what's interesting during the last couple of weeks before Christmas. Where shall i start?

Oh right the soccer match between LRM and CCM. It was kinda random when we learnt that there's gonna be a match. Seems like it came out of no where. So IvanTan decided to put together a LRM soccer team and we had one or two trainings before the match, which was right after the accounting midsem test. In the end the result was 7-4, yes we won.

The field was super muddy cos of the rain the day before. I was the the goalkeeper. So yeah, the picture says it all. And no, i did not conceded 4 goals but only 2 cos i only played the second half.Shane played the first half. Haha.

Later that night i paid 23 bucks to squeeze with ppl at the zouk. Given my condition after the match with the injuries on my feet, i was amazed how i could survive inside. Pay money to squeeze with ppl. Real smart. The music was not bad lah.

Then came Ariel's birthday celebration. Like finally 18 right.

Happy Birthday babe, hope you're having a good time on your super long trip in the states. *rage of jealousy*

Few days later, after some rest, i finally caught ENCHANTED. I'm proud to say i love the movie lah. The songs are so charming and it's such a happy show. It's that kind of movie that really brightens up your day and makes you feel good about yourself. This is the kind of movie everybody needs once in a while.

Oh well, that's about all for the hols. Right now i'm looking forward to the family gathering this weekend. Kinda miss my relatives.

There you go, my favourite holiday is finally here. Though i dreaded it, (which probably is because i dont want it to be over), let's just embrace the festive season and enjoy ourselves.

Merry Christmas!

All I need, is a break.

Alright, i know i havent been updating. No motivations i guess.

Anyway, my family are back from Taiwan, after abandoning me for 2 weeks. I couldnt have been more glad. But hey, i survived. During the 2 weeks, i've realised that living alone is not that bad. It wasnt that different as i spent most of the day in school anyway. You get to spent time with yourself.

However, there will be times you start to feel lonely. It's inevitable. It's human. Especially on those days when you reach home late, tired out, or you had a really bad day, i.e. service. You reached home and you open the door, a quiet house greets you. It's dark and empty, and in most cases, it's cold. Then you reach out to switch on the lights. The lights start to flicker and then finally agreed to light up the house reluctantly. You sit down at the sofa and let out a sigh. Suddenly you feel very, very alone.

The worst part is actually bedtime. You've done all your work and prepared for the next day. It's time to sleep. You tidy up the place and switch off the last light. Then it started to rain. Splatter, splatter, splatter. The wind howling. On that rainy night You walk around the dark and cold house and realise there are many empty beds in the empty rooms. You chose the bed of the night and lie down, savouring the much needed rest while listening to the croaking of the toads...

But soon, all these will be put behind your mind when you start to have chores to do. The bunch of clothes start pilling up, and you have to start washing them. Since i still couldnt figure out how to use that darn washing machine, i hand-washed them. Yes, very tiring. Can wash until pant. Very scary. Ironing my uniforms was even worse. Took me whole of a Sunday to iron. Someone tell me how the hell do i iron a chef's cap?

Well, it was a nice being home alone, actually, considering i'm such an independent boy. Haha.

School's been really busy, many things to do, many commitments, time is so packed, hardly have any time to go out and unwind. Looking forward to Friday night to laugh my lungs out in Minds cafe. Oh, and i cant wait to watch ENCHANTED. I really really wanna watch lahhh.. The last movie i watched was probably balls of fury. Dumb movie.

While being busy, i was on an emotional rollercoaster too. Maybe because of service, which is both physically and metally demanding, gave me a chance to reflect on myself, how a person i've become. The truth is i dont like it. I dont like the person i've become. Especially getting scolded it kinda made me think, not just in service but in everyday life. The way i treat everything. The way my attitute is. I'm not sure, but I think I've become a person different from the one i once knew. I was disappointed with myself. For a few days of the past week, i was feeling down.

But i'm fine now, thank you very much. All i need is a break, maybe a lazy day out with friends, chill, relax, unwind... Just to sit back and look back on the past few weeks that just went buzzing by, before standing up and face the yet another upcoming wave of challenges.



The days are gone and will never come back.

When I cry and no one hears.
Be the gentle voice and whisper to my ears...

Home Alone

Ok. Crap.

My family is leaving for Taiwan on Monday morning. And they just told me it's gonna be 2 weeks. TWO WEEKS.

I'm gonna die, i'm gonna die, i'm gonna frigging die.

Who's gonna wash and iron my clothes? Who's gonna cook steamed fish for me???

Anyone interested in working part time as my maid? I'm hiring. Interested parties please send your resume to dafangteo@hotmail.com. Pay and benefits negotiable. (most probably i'll cook some steamed fish for you)

Looking on the brighter side, i'm gonna have 2 weeks of freedom. Yes, no more naggings no more scoldings. I can walk around naked or even hire a stripper to my house and nobody would care.

Anyone have any idea how to operate a washing machine?

Another week has gone, but i'm still holding on

Wow. Just a blink of the eye and a flash of a smile, week 3 of sch is almost coming to an end.

Thank god it's deepavali and that allowed me to catch up with some sleep and the energy to even blog.

Ever since sch started it's been very hectic and tiring, both physically and mentally. Seems to wake up very early and going home late everyday. Sigh, hardly had a chance to rest and relax.

However, just like any other humans, who are animals known to be extremely adaptive to their surroundings, i've started to adapt to the routine. Besides being tired, i'm actually enjoying school. With my buddies, ie. shawn ding desmond, in my class and my project group(!) (there goes our gpas), i'm able to see through the demanding schedules in sch, especially service and culinary.

Anyway, just last week, i attended Rockapella's concert at the Esplanade. It's was really remarkable. I dont regret spending that 60 buckaroos on that night. Lucky Ariel even got a free shaver from them and she gave it to me. Wad a bargain. Lol.

The guys of Rockapella are really awesome. They each have very nice and sexy voices which blend so well in harmorny. Being an acapella band, they have no instruments at all. All music is made by their mouths. Superd. During one of the songs called Silver Bells, it was so good that Warren, who was sitting beside me, almost burst into tears and cry. He was like trembling. I was quite scared.

So yeah, highly recommended. Too bad it's an one night only.

Well, that's about all. I'm gonna enjoy the rest of the week and await the arrival of a even more hectic new week. Oh and my family is going off to Taiwan next week. Looks like i'm gonna be home alone. Yeah. But wait, who's gonna wash my clothes and iron and cook?

Holy shit.

STEAMED FISH

There have been signs of question marks from people regarding the legendary steamed fish that my friends Desmond, Shawn and of course, myself have been religiously discussing about. So i've decided to talk about and share the holy dish to you people. Consider yourselves lucky. We dont usually do this.

I think the steamed fish is really a wonderful dish. It tastes like heaven with a godlike aroma. It is suitable for any occasions and festivals. And of course, it is easy to cook. Everyone can cook. Even my mother can cook. Desmond's mother can cook. Shawn's mother can cook. Your mother also can cook.

Just in case you want to cook steamed fish yourself, here is the recipe.

Steamed Fish

Ingredients

• 1 1/2 pounds halibut, cut into 4 pieces


• 3 green onions, cut into 3 inch lengths


• 2 fresh mushrooms, sliced
  
• 6 leaves napa cabbage, sliced into 4 inch pieces
  
• 2 slices fresh ginger root, finely chopped
  
• 2 cloves garlic, chopped
  
• 1/4 cup low-sodium soy sauce
  
• 1/8 cup water
  
• crushed red pepper flakes to taste
  
• fresh cilantro sprigs, for garnish

Directions

1. Arrange 1/2 of the green onions on the bottom of the steaming bowl (it is important to steam in a container in order to retain the steam and juices around the fish). Place 1/2 of the mushrooms and Napa cabbage sections on top of the onions. Place fish on top of the vegetables. Sprinkle ginger, garlic, and red pepper flakes over fish. Top with the remaining green onions, mushrooms, and napa cabbage. Drizzle soy sauce and water over everything.


2. Place steam bowl in a steamer over 1 inch of boiling water, and cover. Steam for 15 to 20 minutes, or until fish flakes easily. Garnish with cilantro, if desired.

Note

Halibut, cod, or any firm-fleshed white fish will work for this recipe.

Your end product should look like this. However please note that this picture is for illustration purposes only. Your end product may vary. Fishes are like humans, they each have different and unique faces.

If i'm you, i'll go and ask my mother to cook steamed fish now. Right now. Right this very moment.

Oh ya, it's Halloween.

Before i forget, Happy Halloween!



Er. Please dont kill us. Haha.

I just want...

It's been a week since school started.

During this week, much has happened and i realised it's been the most tiring first week of school of my life.

Service on mondays, culinary on wednesdays. Subjects that reminded me of self discipline, responsiblity and making efforts. Virtues that suddenly seem so foregin and ancient.

Looking back, for the past few months, i havent really been the person that i'm supposed to be. I laze around, doing nothing meaningful at all. I've stop trying. Trying to the right things. Trying to do things right.

What ever happened to the boy who used to try?

People do change. I just want it for the better.

I'll change. I'll be a better man.

Anyway, the new semester seems tough but exciting. Yes, exciting. Got yelled at by Mr Goh for the slightest mistakes an innocent boy makes. ie. saying YAH. Cut my finger during culinary, (though not as bad as Warren's.) Haha. Warren ah, oooooo..

And of course loosing my service shirt to the menacing wind, when it was being hung outside to dry...

Why do these kinds of things always happen to me? How unlucky can a person get?

I almost had to say a swear word but i controlled myself.

Wind, i thought you were my friend.

Well, new semester, new experiences. As Berns says, challenging it may seem, fullfilling it will be. ( seems to his new favourite line.)


wondering how did we had those carefree times...

So, i just want. Want you to smile like i do. Want you to bring a smile to my face like you all always do...

It's been a long time!

Hey everyone! How was your hoildays?

Okay okay, i know i havent been updating and my faithful readers are seriously very mad and fustrated. Even blogger threatened to close down my blog. It's getting so tensed up so i decide to do something before i lose all my beloved readers.

The truth is, i went Heaven during the holidays to visit angels. There was no internet connection and that's why i couldnt blog. I even begged Jesus to lend me his laptop but he was busy typing reports. So yeah. My sincere apologies.

So people, dont be angry! To make up for it, here's a little something for you to enjoy. It's a very soothing piece that i've been listening to.



Okay just chill, sit back, relax and enjoy. Dont forget to smile too!

Being angry will only make you look old with all those wrinkles!

So i blogged! Yes, dont give up on me yet.

After all these months, i finally realise it was not meant to be.
After all these times, i was actually hanging on for nothing.

Wah lao. A nurse?

You Are An ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. In love, you value harmony and mutual understanding. You will apologize or give someone the benefit of the doubt, if it means getting over a fight sooner. At work, you are good at building relationships and connecting with people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher. How you see yourself: Organized, dependable, co-operative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Opinionated, critical, and know-it-all

What's Your Personality Type?

You mean it's been a week?

You have no idea how rotting at home is such a torment.

Where every minute seems like an hour, where every day seems like a lifetime.

It is a slow, painful torture, that squeezes the lasts of the soul out of your body, leaving you a lifeless, unresponsive decomposed mass.

Please call 1800-STOP-ROTTING for help.

Okay, so to prevent myself from rotting, i've planned an exciting and fullfilling holiday for myself. Reading storybooks and watching OC marathon. :):):)


A Walk To Remember. A definite tear jerker without mercy. For those who hate reading, i'll recommend the movie. Personally, i think the novel and the movie are just as worth going for. People who like reading, will find the novel tugging at your heartstrings. From what i know, Nicholas Sparks never fail to do just that.

Just finished the last pages of the book today on the train. Even though i already knew the ending, i was quite surprised that i was actually emotional when i was reading it. The kind of bittersweet current that conducts through your body. That was when i realise i was on the train and i'd better behave myself. Haha.

Yes, a heart breaking love story that will make the readers cry until like the tears are free one. LOL.


The Five People You Meet In Heaven. This is the book i'm reading now. Cant say much about it cos i just started. Still meeting the first person. Hahah.




The O.C. marathon at late nights. A show i can watch again and over again. I think. It's probably my favourite tv show. Smallville used to be my favourite, but i hate it now cos Lana Lang married Lex Luthor.

The O.C. simply rocks. Beautiful people, beautiful clothes, beautiful place.

Well, so it's been a week since i last blogged. No, not quitting blogging. Not yet. The reason i didnt blog is because i spent the week sulking.

I havent watch NO RESERVATIONS LAHH!!!! @#$@%^

If i dont get to watch it this holiday, i'm not going back to school. LOL. Catherine Zeta-Jones, wait for me okay.

P.S. It's amazing how much i can sleep being given the free time. After the chalet yesterday, i went straight home at 7 am to sleep until dinner time. Sometimes it just make me wonder, what's the difference between a pig and me?

To Qian. Yes, AUNTIE! Updated already! And i thought of one more thing people do when they go toilet. TAKE PHOTOS. Just like someone we know right?

Disappointments?

So it was on the news a few days back, that Vanessa Anne Hudgens posted nude, and the pictures were exposed.

Yes, she is the girl on my blog.

My reactions when i first heard of it? I wasnt surprised actually. Knowing what a screwed up world it is nowadays, what's new?

Disappointed? Nah not really. Infact i had the urge to search for the pictures and post it here, but the thought of upholding the decency of my blog and the protection of my readers, who are not ready to face the dark side (i.e. ariel chia. haha), i've decided to resist that temptation.

Just wondering, what's wrong with disney's girls? First Lindsay Lohan and now you? Come on man.

Hoping Desmond wont be heart broken. Haha. Okay enough of gossips.

Went back to mshs on tuesday. Just missed my teachers badly and wanna visit. Was planning to visit on teacher's day but had a paper. So to make up, i brought lunch for them. You know how sch canteen's food is, so i thought it would be nice if i just buy lunch on the way.

It was really nice to be back, seeing the teachers that used to teach me and scold me and punish me. It was even more heart warming to know that they actually remember me. They are really a bunch of wonderful people, whom i feel so comfortable to be with. To think that i used to be childish and innocent, always irritating teachers. Suddenly i just miss those days. I have to admit that those days were one of the best times i had so far. The times that i will always remember and cherish.

I promised them that i'll post an entry about them, but i need to be inspired before i can write a good one. So give me some time! Haha.

Received a message from Paulina about the KL trip. Yeah, just what i needed. A getaway.

Something to distract myself and escape from you know you know. KL seems just fine.




Though you said nothing, you made it clear that it wont happen.
I just dont stand a chance huh.
Though I said nothing, i hope you knew my feelings.
It was clear, as a shallow stream.

More Than Words...

Have you ever wondered how much you actually talk a day?

I did.
Sometimes i wonder, am i the talkative type or the quiet type?

Well, i think i'm kind of both. Some days i find myself talking too much like a chatterbox, but sometimes i realised i havent spoken for days...

But no matter what, i know i talk to myself the most, which is true for most people, more than anyone i've talked to in this world, even for those friends whom i can speak my mind with.

Talking to oneself, to me, is the most comfortable thing to do. It's one good way to find comfort, and to seek peace. Please, i'm not mad. Most people do that.

Infact, everyone does it. You do it all the time, no matter what you're doing, or where you are, you talk to yourself. The only question is, what do you talk to yourself about? Think about it.

Okay, i better stop uttering nonsenses before everyone thinks i'm going crazy.

So, what did i do today?
Hmm, i went to get some dvds to accompany me through the holidays, bought subway sandwich, and i offered my seat to a pregnant lady on the train.

Yes, really lor.
"Please offer this seat to someone who needs it more than you do."

Well, it was abit of an irony because i took the train from city hall to marina bay, so that i can get a bloody seat. So when the train bounces back to city hall, i actually got up and offer my seat to a pregnant lady who just boarded the train. Weird.

Anyway, i felt good after doing that. Not that i want any recongnition for it, but i just thought that it was something worth mentioning. Because afterwards, a quote from Evan Almighty struck me.

"All we need, is a random act of kindness at a time."

On the journey back home, i smiled.



Why is it so hard to get to you?
What should i do?
I wanna know.

Happy Holidays!

So the holidays are finally here.

It's indeed a welcomed change of pace. It's been really peaceful at home, taking long afternoon naps and lying around. That is when i start to appreciate the things around me. The Sun shining brightly like an Angel's smile, the birds chirping happily like a choir, the gentle breeze kissing my face and racing through my hair. When the trees outside dancing along with the wind and rustling of the leaves, it's almost like a symphony orchestra.

What a beautiful life. Relaxing and taking things slow. Much of a contrast as compared to the last two weeks when I was studying feverishly( is there such a word?) and all the worries and stress...

Ya. For once i was studying right? Haha.

Well, besides resting, i need to make use of the given blessed free time. It may not be a job, but something that i'd like to do. Maybe a hobby or something meaningful, but most importantly constructive. It is not leisure but recreation because in recreation's context, it must not be destructive and sees to the well-being of the person, preferably rejuvenation and sef-actualization. Haha. Just a joke lah.

I just dont want to rot.

That is why i'm considering bern's job offer, a teacher's assistant in his sec sch. They are real short of teachers, so yea, maybe giving a hand to help out. But if i were to be a relief teacher, i'd rather go back to mshs though. Miss my sec sch lah.

Dont ask me why but suddenly i have the urge to shop! I think it all started with a bag. Damn nice. I cant wait to get it man.

Shopping List For This Holiday

1. The black Columbia sling bag


2. A pair of jeans?


3. A nice belt


4. A pair of shoes?


5. More shirts please!

But before that, i need to have money first. :)

Oh well, there you go, enjoy the holidays. Things will only get better if you want it to be.

Argh. Cant wait to watch it!

Looking forward to the outings and activites planned for the hols.

What is holding me back?
I want it more than anything.

Okay a random post.

Just wanna talk about copycats. See.

Real:


Fake:


What's with these people. Ariel, pls stop being a copy cat! Haha.

So there's this name thing going on that everyone is doing, i also do lor.

Teo Tai Hong -- [adjective]: Visually addictive 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Teo Tai Hong -- [adjective]: Sexually stunning 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Teo Tai Hong -- [adjective]: Tastes like fried chicken 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Teo Tai Hong -- [noun]: A human transformer (Robot in disguise) 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Teo Tai Hong -- [noun]: A master blogger 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Anyway, today is the last time i'm gonna study with bernard.

He makes me wanna tear myself apart.

Subway rocks! People, subway is giving free meals with every sandwich purchased.
Only until 2 sep.

Ooh and rebecca is hot lah. No wonder ariel is in love with her. Hahaha...

Cant wait for the exams to be over...

I feel weird.

It's been a hellava exam week and i'm drained. I just can wait to get the exams done and over with.

Oh and i went to Bible class with ariel and bernard today lah. Can you believe it?

Anyway it was quite an experience lah. Was kinda freaked out at first when they started praying. I actually paid attention to the pastor. Talked about something like salvation and faith.

Faith is a decision.
We are overcomers.
We live by faith.

Err.. Yeah.. Honestly, some of the things he said were quite meaningful. But to me, i just cant relate. and i think the pastor really need to improve his pronounciation and grammar. Haha.

So instead of studying i became a christian for an hour.

Qian just told me i've been asking her the same questions many times. Erm i didnt realise it la. Okay i agree it's damn weird. Dont ask me why. I have no idea. Haha sorry ah.

See, i've been acting weirdly lately.

After much thoughts, i've decided that it's because of the exams. Especially resort ops. Yes, imagine memorising the bloody notes for 2 days and still cant get anything into the head? The paper was a killer lah. Who the hell asks for all 9 elements of total experiences and all the implications for resort developers?? Who the hell can actually remember all of them word by word? I do until my brain gonna explode can.

Wahh. Spent the last half hr of the test squeezing any answers left out of the brain.

Poor brain. You must have been so tired.

So yea, because of the exams, i've lost my sense of humour and started behaving weirdly.

All I want, is to hold you close...

I know i might have been insensitive.
I'm sorry.

I feel lost and confused,
cos I've never done this before.

I want to do it right,
but i just dont know how.

Give me a chance,
i'll learn to make it right.

Sometimes i wish that you will tell me how you feel.
But first i need to tell you mine.

I'll always be here.

This is my first, and i really want it to be right.

I dont want to lose the best thing in my life.

Oh my god another quiz...

Okay people, this is getting ridiculous.

Wad's with all the quizzes man.

Alright, for the sake of entertaining you, here you go,

List out the top 5 presents you wish for:
1. A pair of wings
2. A genuine halo
3. A beautiful girl
4. I'll put the wings and halo on the girl
5. A 5D4N trip to Heaven for 2

Answer the following questions:

The person who tagged you is:
OMG so many ppl how how how errr ok i'll just anyhow choose. My neighbour's dog?

Your relationship with him is:
Uh hmm.. cannot say

Your 5 impressions of him:
1. so cute
2. eee so smelly
3. loser
4. noisy
5. stupid

The most memorable thing he had done for you:
Ate my homework

The most memorable words he had said to you:
Woof woof!

If he/ she becomes your lover,you will:
oh my god shouldnt have chosen him. er have babies?

If he/ she becomes your lover, things he/ she has to improve on will be:
his table manners

If he/ she becomes your enemy, you will:
kill and cook curry

If he/ she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
eat my homework

The most desired thing you want to do for him/ her now is:
make him eat my accounting notes

Your overall impression of him/ her is:
a dog?

How do you think people around you will feel about you?
errrrrrrrrrrr................... happy?

The characteristic(s) you love of yourself is /are:
handsome, rich and charming

On the contrary, the characteristic (s) you hate of yourself is/ are:
too handsome too rich and too charming. sigh.

The most ideal person you want to be is:
a good guy

For people that like and care for you, say something to them:
thanks, and i rreally appreciate it.

Pass this quiz to 10 people
1. John
2. David
3. Peter
4. Mary
5. Tom
6. Jane
7. Ann
8. Harry
9. Susan
10. Joyce

Who is No. 6 having a relationship with?
John

Is No. 9 a female or male?
Female

If No. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
er not really, if 2 girls are together, means 2 girls less available for guys

How about No. 8 and 5?
ya not bad, if 2 guys get together, means 2 less competition for me

What is No. 2 studying about?
he studies law in harvard

When was the last time you had a chat with No. 3?
oh just before he became spiderman

What kind of music band does No. 8 like?
hmm hairy songs?

Does No. 1 has any siblings?
think so, not very sure. not very close to him

Will you woo No. 3?
ah no way, he's busy fighting crime

How about No. 7?
hmm maybe. sounds like a nice girl

Is No. 4 single?
oh no, she's married with 2 kids and 5 grandchildren

What's the surname of No. 5?
Dick Harry

What's the name of No. 10?
Joyce?

What's the hobby of No. 4?
collect stamps. i'm serious.

Do No.5 and 9 get along well?
hmm not really lah. they tend to fight alot

Where is No. 2 studying at?
studying law in harvard

Talk something casually about No. 1?
he's very casual

Have you tried developing feelings for No. 8?
i tried to develop a resort concept

Where does No. 9 live at?
she wanted to come heaven with me, but i said no, it's just not meant to be

What colour does No. 4 likes?
i'm not sure, havent really asked her about it before

Are No. 5 and 1 best friends?
oh yeah, but they quarrel alot too.

Does No. 7 like No. 2?
heh heh i think so

How do you get to know No. 2?
in church

Does No. 1 have any pets?
ya a dog

Is No. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
ok la not very.


Wah finally done. 30 mins of my life wasted. this time seriously.

anyway ariel said that i should mention her again in my blog so i'll become more famous and get more fans. so, here it is.

today i went out with ariel.

i dont believe you lor.

The weird questionaires..

Right, back from the airport.

Saying goodbyes are always the hardest. Sigh.

Thanks to Paulina, i'm gonna do this thing which i have no idea wad it's called.

So, here you go.

4 Jobs I Had In My Life

- IMF room service

- IT shows

- Production crew

- Slave ( seriously, ask my sec sch teachers )

4 Movies I Can Watch Over And Over Again

- Pearl Harbor ( i cried )

- 300 ( ooh la la )

- Band of Brothers

- Life is Beautiful

4 Places I've Been On Vacation To

- Korea ( so romantic lah )

- Beijing ( super cold )

- Thailand

- Hell

4 Of My Favourite Dishes

- Hidden Bacon Crouching Tiger ( only ppl who goes to breadtalk would know )

- wah cant think of anymore

- er noodles?

- hmmmm rice?

4 Places I Would Like To Visit

- Europe

- America

- Maldives

- Heaven

4 Most Overused Words

- Heaven

- Angel

- Wah Lao

- Errrrr

4 TV Shows I Love To Watch

- Punk'd

- Late Night With Conan O'Brien
- The O.C.
- Jamie Oliver's cooking shows ( lol! )

4 Bloggers I'm Tagging

- Ariel

- Shawne

- Desmond

- Qian!

Yes! I'm done! Let's see, 20 mins of my life wasted. Haha.

Anyway Ariel said that if i post this picture, i'll be a superstar overnight.

Hmm, let's see if i'll get famous tmr!

And here is the emo pic of the day,

If Heaven is a million years away, just call me and i'll make your day...

Let me show you what love can do...

I'm addicted to this song. Been listening to it non stop for 2 days on repeat mode. Haha. So, listen to it while you read my blog, or better still, sing along!



But if you wanna cry, cry on my shoulder,
If you need someone, who cares for you,
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder,
Let me show you wad real love can do.

The best things in life, they are free.

So many things. so little time

Happy Birthday, Qian!
I'm glad you enjoyed your birthday so much. :)
Smiling like an angel.

So, it's been some time since i last blogged, and so much had happened over these few days.

Both happy and emotional.

Well, the past week was kind of busy, the ig preparing for the farewell gathering. It's really touching to see everyone doing their part to make the gathering a success. I wish i couldve helped more.

Spent thursday with Qian. Lunch at Jerry's BBQ was as usual, satisfying. You never fail to disappoint me. :) Perfect Stranger was really a weird movie. Hey Qian, if you ask me, i'd still prefer Hot Fuzz can! Hahaha.

Before i knew it, it was the last day at TAS.

Actually, i find it hard to accept. It seems only like yesterday when we first step into TAS.

Cant believe how time actually flies when you're having a good time.

Nonetheless, it was really a sweet farewell gathering.
Something meaningful to sum up the times we had in TAS.

I finally gave my speech. Phew. I know it was a crappy speech, but my feelings about TAS were all there. I meant them lah. Took me like 2 days to write that k. Haha.

TAS was almost, almost like Heaven to me, and each and everyone of you are the Angels in it. :)

Now, dont be sad, ppl, let's put this beautiful chapter of our lives behind and look forward to create another chapter in TP together.

Okay, so i got a new phone! Samsung L760.




It's the best phone ever lah. It's now my favourite toy. :)


Anyway, i wanted to end my blog entry with an usual emo pic, but cant think of any.

I felt guilty calling those 2 morons, morons, in my previous entry, so i shall post a a nice pic of them. haha.




Oh and my cousin is going back to California tonight. Sigh, so sad.

Ah. Last week in TAS.

Alas. Last week in TAS.

So our contactless card was taken back today. Instead of using that card to enter Sentosa, we now use a letter to show to the staff and demand entry.

Goddamn, was hot today. Almost had to go to sch naked.

Okay so after sch we hanged around at lad 3. Took some interesting pictures.

Erm that's Warren and I. And yes, we are holding hands. I know wad you are thinking, i'm not gay(not sure about warren though), it's supposed to be artistic. So cool right.

Look at the 2 morons trying to copy us. COPYCATS. Haha.

Hmm since i've been doing this for the past 2 days, i'm gonna do this again,

Let's look at an emo pic.

I love this pic lah. So nice.

OH and i'm supposed to prepare a speech to be delievered on friday during the TAS farewell gathering! How how how? My god.

Brrrr cold!

Wad a weird day, it was hot like hell in the afternoon and now it's so damn bloody cold at night.

Oh dear, why am i having a tummy ache out of a sudden? Am i pregnant?

Qian suggested that maybe it's Heaven inside my tummy. My goodness. She said that i should name my daughter Heaven next time. I think i'm gonna name my son Hell. Haha.

Imagine, Hell Teo.

How cool is that?

Hi, i'm Hell, you are?

Hey, meet my daughter Heaven and this is my son, Hell.

Okay, another emo pic.

Looking beyond? Nah. Look forward to meet Heaven and Hell. Haha.

Oh BESE test tmr. All the best to me. Sigh, means formal wear. I hope it snows tmr at TAS, if the weather is like this afternoon's, i'll go naked.

For your information, i've decided not to change my address for the convenience of those who already linked me. :)

Let's sing!

Come, sing along!

Canivore!

Carnivore is a brazillian meat buffet restaurant. Yes, meat buffet. Like the sound of it? Heaven.

It was to me, but not anymore. Haha. Ok lah, it was damn nice la. But i cant believe i got OWNED by meat, to the extent of almost puking. i ate so little lah!

The buffet has a salad bar, oh and trust me, it's good, a heavenly chocolate fondue, and of course different kinds of meat. Quality meat. You dont just greedily take as much as you want in this buffet, but instead, the chefs come to you and slice the meat for you on to you plate. there's steak. pork shoulders, pork ribs, chicken, ham, fish, mutton and alot more. It was really quite an experience, and expensive experience. Haha.

ok, this is the chef serving ham! i still look fresh and happy.

hmm, me dying and warren still going strong like a monster.

Wad a day. Let's see an emo pic.

Should I change my blog address?

Spent the day watching dvds at Linus's house. Dinner at chomp chomp.

After dinner we took a long walk back to his house. Along the way, we passed by Ariel's house. Too bad she wasnt at home. We wanted to take a picture infront of her house as memories for shawne. Haha. He said that place is really nice. I said he finally found his Heaven. Haha.

I was thinking of possible new addresses for my blog during the walk. Thought of a few, but i need comments okay! Here they are,

www.amiinheaven.blogspot.com
www.willyoubemyangel.blogspot.com
www.heaveniswhereiwannabe.blogspot.com
www.iloveangels.blogspot.com
www.iloveheaven.blogspot.com
www.angelsarenice.blogspot.com
www.heavenisnice.blogspot.com

Errr on second thoughts i think they are not very nice for a guy. Come on, i need suggestions!

Cant believe i missed the NDP show this year. I miss the parade and SAF's performance lah.

I'm gonna be one of the commandos Guard of Honour in a few years time! Haha!

Oh, and Lena, I'm so not gonna write 6 weird things about me. I just dont find myself weird and i simply cant find any!
Okay why dont you people tell me 6 weird things about me and i'll post them?

I'm not weird lah, really.

On this day... I'm in love with my blog

National Day.
I dont know how to explain, but suddenly i love my blog very much.
It's a simple, yet it somehow showcases wad i want, Heaven and Angels. Haha.

Nah just kidding.

But let me talk about my blog skin, look at that girl, she's pretty like an angel, looking towards the heaven, smiling. When angels smile, it shines like the sun. True enough, it shone brightly, and she has to cover with her hands. It is at this moment, she caught a glimpse of heaven. So did i. :)

Alright, enough about my glibberish.(is there sucha word?) The girl in that picture is called Vanessa Anne Hudgens. She's from the High School Musical and when she sings, she melts me like a scoop of ice cream under the hot and scorching sun. I swear.

I know a person would agree with me, and that would be desmond. His newly created blog is dedicated to her. http://www.vodkaaa.blogspot.com/

So, on this day, the National Day, i've fell in love with my blog. i think it's damn nice lah!

Happy Birthday, Singapore!
I thank God for being a Singaporean each day, as i get to see angels and it's truly a place i can catch a glimpse of heaven. :)